Just like a wife

A student was walking towards a printer, intending to use the printer to print his work when his friend called out to him. The student’s friend said:” Hey, do not use that printer! That printer is spoilt. It takes your money but does nothing! Just like a wife.”

Hope this jokes brings a smile to your face.

Cheers

Fire, Fire, Fire. Wolf, Wolf, Wolf. Smart A*ses, Dumb A*ses.

It was another false fire alarm triggered off in my hall during the early morning. When I say early, I mean it. It was 4am in the early morning !!!

I just do not understand !!! If those “smart a*ses” are clever enough to get themselves into Imperial College, why are they so dumb and do stupid things to trigger off the fire alarm ???

This is the donkey times that the fire alarm is trigger off in middle of the night. And it is almost the end of the academic year, they should know by now what triggers the fire alarm and how to avoid it. If those dumb a*ses have learning difficulties, then why are they in Imperial College ???

Where is their common senses ??? Or not all senses are common ??? God Da*n it !!!

What determines who and what we love ???

The way to determine who (or what) we love is by our feelings and not through rational thinking. That is what makes decision so difficult. But it is also the factor that makes love to have its magical touch.

The quote came from the cartoon, South Park. I was watching South Park just now when the dialogue struck me. I cannot quote the dialogue word for word but I have kept the meaning similar to the context of the dialogue.

Spend some time to think, analyse and digest those words.

My London Nightmare (Part 3)

It has been some time since I write about my London Nightmare series already. Since I have no mood to study, I decided to continue the story…….

A brief re-cap, I end up in my College purely due to the College’s administrative mistake, and my English s**ks. Making me feel terrible and have self-doubt about my capabilities and knowledge. I started to wonder if I can pass my exams and graduate from my College.

The self-doubt I had soon developed into inferior complex. The inferior complex that I had lost it since I started the end of my Polytechnic year 1 studies as I was doing quite well then. I took two of my exams, molecular biology and physical biochemistry with fear, anxiety and my inferior complexity.

I was thinking to myself :” If I were to fail my exams, to analysis the cause of it will be very difficult. I could fail because I really cannot cope with the studies here, it could be my poor command of English that could not allow me to express my thoughts and knowledge well enough to the examinations, or both.”

It took the College a term for them to compute and release our results ………...2 months of waiting ……... 2 months of pure mental torture ……...

While waiting for my results to be released, I keep having bad dreams at least 3 times a week. The pain is just too much for me……... But I just have to bear it ……...

Hamleys

I was shopping with two of my friends yesterday and went into Hamleys, a gigantic toy store in London. It is a six storey shop including the basement filled with toys. After browsing through the store, a thought suddenly came through my mind.

As a kid, I had always wanted many toys of certain cartoon series or collections. Considering myself lucky, I was given some of the toys I wanted as I am the youngest in my family and my family dot me a lot. Still, I didn’t get all the toys in my wish list *I know that is impossible*. But, as a kid *even now, there is still a kid in me*, I wish to be a rich man when I grow so that I can buy all the toys and games that are on my wish list.

The trip in Hamleys made me realized that all the toys and games I wanted as a kid are mostly out of production and have become “antiques” or collectables. All those toys are hard to find, more expensive and first hand are even rarer *I do not like second hand stuffs*, let alone having a complete set of certain toy series. For instance, the original Transformer, Mask *is a cartoon eons ago and not the Jim Carrey movie* and Lego, the castle series.

On the other hand, my thoughts was even if I am rich and manage to get those toys, I will have no time to play with them as I will be too busy with my work *if not, how do I get so rich and influential to manage to find and buy the toys*. While typing my blog, I also realize that I will have no one to share my toys and joy with. Back in the good old days while I was still a kid, on the get together session on big occasions such as Chinese New Year, my cousins and I will bring our toys of the same cartoon but different character and play together. But now, even if I have the whole collection of characters, who will play with me ??? Will I have the time to play with the toys ???

Have anyone of you have the same thoughts as me or agree with my thoughts after reading this entry ???

In life, you will not get most of the things that you want most of the time.

Cheers

My London Nightmare (Part 2)

There is a Chinese saying, trouble do not travel alone. After being “threaten” by my admission tutor, I started to get worried if I am able to catch up with the school work. While I was trying to get accustom to the life in London and school work, I was once again put into test by god…….

As a second year student, I was required to take a supplementary course. The supplementary course is similar to those cross faculty subjects offer in National University of Singapore (NUS) or Nayang Technology University (NTU). Because I register for the supplementary course “late” *the other students register last academic year*, the only course left open for me is the Biochemistry dissertation. It is a 6000 words report that I have to write with a lecturer assigned as my mentor.

For most of my dear friend out there, you all might have known that I have terrible problem with the English language. My General Certificate of Education, ordinary level (GCE ‘O’ level) English language subject is only C5. That is not all, after being away from school for about three years *two and a half years in the National Service (NS), half a year waiting for the NS enlistment and the start my College*, which I had not been reading and writing much, my English have deteriorated. My point here is that my English s**ks to the core.

The problem comes in when I talk to my project mentor, and submitted a outline of my dissertation to him, he commented that my command of English is extremely poor. My mentor said he cannot understand what I was writing and asked me how I fair for my year 1 studies *he forgot that I come into year 2 straight*. This is the point that breaks me. Not that he forgot about my status, but his question struck me that with my command of English, I would not be able to express myself clearly in exams and thus, fail my exams.

With weeks of fear after meeting my admission tutor that I might not be able to cope with my studies. Now my dissertation mentor is trying to tell me that my terrible command of English will affect my academic performances as I cannot express my knowledge and ideas in a well understood manner.

All these events and comments set fear in me, get me worried and eventually led me to have self doubt. Initially, with the acceptance of my College directly into year 2 boost my morale and give me confidence that I lack in years. I told myself that I am “god-like”. Finally, my talent is recognized !!! I might make it big in the future one day !!! I am member of the elite in the Singapore society !!! But it is the exact same reason that makes me lost all confidence to the rock bottom and even to a stage of self doubt. I even think that I am a dog. I was just simply lucky to get admitted into my College and I am not fit to be in the College at all !!! MY PRESENCE IN LONDON AND COLLEGE WAS JUST PURELY A MISTAKE AND NOTHING MORE !!! I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A PIECE OF SHIT !!!

My Favourites - Movies

English film: Prime, Saving Private Ryan, Down Periscope, Kingdom of Heaven,

Chinese flim: Para Para Sakura, Xin Dong,

Currently, that is wat i can think of at the moment, will edit this entry and add in more films and comments.

Cheers