My London Nightmare (Part 3)

It has been some time since I write about my London Nightmare series already. Since I have no mood to study, I decided to continue the story…….

A brief re-cap, I end up in my College purely due to the College’s administrative mistake, and my English s**ks. Making me feel terrible and have self-doubt about my capabilities and knowledge. I started to wonder if I can pass my exams and graduate from my College.

The self-doubt I had soon developed into inferior complex. The inferior complex that I had lost it since I started the end of my Polytechnic year 1 studies as I was doing quite well then. I took two of my exams, molecular biology and physical biochemistry with fear, anxiety and my inferior complexity.

I was thinking to myself :” If I were to fail my exams, to analysis the cause of it will be very difficult. I could fail because I really cannot cope with the studies here, it could be my poor command of English that could not allow me to express my thoughts and knowledge well enough to the examinations, or both.”

It took the College a term for them to compute and release our results ………...2 months of waiting ……... 2 months of pure mental torture ……...

While waiting for my results to be released, I keep having bad dreams at least 3 times a week. The pain is just too much for me……... But I just have to bear it ……...