I am enlighted !!! i must be a man !!!

I got to find out another major flaws that i have. that is being very lazy ...... and not behaving like a man in our TV relationship ......

i realise the flaw this evening while i was msn-ing my love ...... my princess have kindly shortlisted 3 travel insurances, and ask me to help her decided which one should she purchase..... being lazy and trying to get the easy way out, i just compare the prices and advice my dear to buy the cheapest one.

my princess must be angry with me, she sigh and said that:" cannot depend on you". This words really wake me up ...... it might be a casual remark from her .... but i take it serious ..... it is not a bad thing that i take this seriously, becoz it is a wake up call for me ..... it is sub-conscious thought of my princess on me ......

in order to win my princess heart and to show / reassure her that i am her Mr. Right, i must make her feel assured when she is with me ...... and to do so ..... i must be a man !!!!! be her man !!!!!

to be a man - her man, i must learn to shoulder responsibilities. maybe i am the youngest in my family, i always have the easy way out and never have to worry much about this thing called responsibility. so i deduced that one very important thing that i haven't give or proven to my princess, is my maturity. i must mature and evolved into a man ..... no longer a boy boy in my family ......

maturing into a man and learning to shoulder responsibility will give my princess assurance and that is translated into security. Security has always been one of a very important aspect that a ger looks for in a guy. i never knew what security is ...... and also did not know how to give my love the sense of security she needs.

But today ...... my dearest princess have guided me to yet another enlightment - how to provide her the sense of security that she is entitled to, from me.

i must say, most of you might not know that wat i am today - a much refine gentleman and a better understanding of woman, is the work of my dearest love. All the credits go to my dearest princess ...... she teaches me how to be a gentleman - opening doors for gers and their frens, be a patient listener, etc ....... and demonstrates to me that gers are "kou shi xin fei". that is, they will say one thing but do another. and i have to interpret wat is really in their mind.

i will do my very best to grow up and provide u with the sense of security u need (hopefully soon).

Thank you my love .....

Nothing is absolute in this world

Nothing is absolute in this world. That is what my dearest princess likes to say. I agreed with her. But the saying has limitation on its applications.

The saying: “Nothing is absolute in this world” applies to uncertainties, predictions and things that have not happen yet. But when things or events have occurred, the saying is not applicable. For example, I have never set foot in America before for my past 24 years of my life. That is absolutely true….. So there are absolute in this world.

So how is this apply to the context of our relationship (the human and alien princess affair) ??? Simple, I just want to say that, yes, it is true that we would not know what is going to happen to us and our relationship in the future, but …… we definitely can have some say or play some roles in the determination of the outcome up to a certain level …… maybe our will to be together takes 50% and the other 50% lies in out fate…..

My message to my dearest princess is this: yes, we might know what lies ahead of us and life is full of uncertainties. Since we already lose half of the deciding factor to fate, we must not give up the other half of the deciding factor that we have in our hands. Maximised the control of the outcome by having total faith in our relationship, which will win us half of the outcome we want – to complete our journeys with the companionship of each other.

My dearest alien princess, trust me!!! Trust your dear !!!

For my side, I am very assured ….. as what I have written on my last post, I know that u r a really really nice ger who is very smart, very conservative and do not fool around. That is y you have all my trust and faith.

I know it is not fair to ask you to have the same level of faith in me as I am to u. Simply becoz I have a lot of shortcomings as compared to you. I will try to constantly upgrade and improve myself so as to reduce the amount of shortcomings that I have. Hopefully, one day, I can earn your full trust and your commitment to me.

Keeping my fingers crossed.

So fortunate of me !!! to have u by my side =)

This thought just flash through my mind while i was preparing to go school this morning - I am so fortunate to get you (yes... is u la... Alien Princess) to be my girlfriend. Loving u and been loved by u is really wonderful. It is just like my life is coated with honey ..... so sweet, so nice, so fortunate.....

Saying all these is not to make u happy ..... these are the words that are from my bottom of my heart.

Why do i say that u r so good and i am fortunate to have u by my side ??? The analysis was done by my 4th mistress and me.

U r a very caring and protective partner..... u treat urself and ur partner (and that is me !!!) as one. if either one is being bullied, u will sure bite the bully with ur sharp teeth. this is a character analysis, thus, no actual examples to quote, but can feel from the love u have for me.

u r also a clever ger..... u know when to be small ger, laid back and let the me lead the way, so that i will feel like a man. But the the same time, u won't blindly follow, u keep a look out for things i have miss out and neglected. the best example is this coming x'mas trip. u prompt me for details and also do some of your own research.

the next good point is that u r very guai ..... u tend to go home after school or work ..... u r not those gers flirt around..... this makes me very assured and have 100% confidence with u..... this can be seen by me and all your frens ....

last but not least ...... u r beautiful ..... and i am serious, not trying to be a sweet talker ..... u might not remember, a few years back, when we go back to Tampines MRT after Yiping's chalet, some ah bengs wolf whistling at you. Another incident, the BVSS gang went to Suntec Cafe Cartel to eat, i overheard the waiters were daring each other to approach u to get ur contact number from u. even thought they never really put their thoughts into actions, i am very sure, 100% sure that they r referring to u. Becoz at that time, there are not much people in the resturant, and they are looking at ur direction.

so ...... i know deep down in my heart i know that i am very fortunate to have u as my girlfriend..... i sincerely hope that our relationship can last ..... becoz i don't want to lose such a perfect ger..... it is not easy to find gers like you.

recently, i just can't concentrate in class and keep thinking of u ..... maybe is becoz u r coming to london to visit me liao ...... i am so excited and looking forward in seeing u and travel with u.

i hope the x'mas trip that i planned do not disappoint u. Let's pray that this x'mas trip will strenghten our relationship and let us know each other better.

I have seriously fallen for u, falling into a bottomless pit. I really like to spend the rest of my life with u. Wo ai ni Shumin !!!!! Let me hold your hands and complete the rest of our journey together.....

*muackz*